Lots of thinking, so many thoughts...My head hurts more than a bit, but I can take it.
Meanwhile, the sunshine calls to me, all around the house, at different places during the day. I follow. It's almost all I have.
It might be that I just need to rest. But there isn't any time to do that, not ever. Things must be done, and I am the only one.
But I do love it, this life. I love my girls, I love my family. I love my life, even though it is severely f***ed up, according to almost all outside measures.
That's okay. I follow the light and warmth, hearkening back to colder-blooded days, I suppose...
And we're being very gentle with each other. There is no room for harshness, of any sort. Each is accorded lots and lots of grace and space.
And it's good. We will get there.
Thanks so much for your patience, sweet friends.
xoxox.
dear blogland friend: I hope you are okay, whatever is happening over in your part of the world. Please let me know if I can help--and that I am sending good, good, SWEET energy in your direction. Hold on.
Posted by: Holly | February 11, 2010 at 07:35 PM
keep following the little patches of sunlight, take deep breaths, take care.
Posted by: sara | February 11, 2010 at 07:39 PM
Take care of yourself and good wishes for you as you work through your troubles.
Your pictures are wonderful. I've been fascinated with sunlight myself recently.
Posted by: Marianna | February 11, 2010 at 07:43 PM
Hang there, my friend...
**sending mental hugs**
Posted by: Happy Find | February 11, 2010 at 09:25 PM
I just lit a candle and whispered "courage" into the wind. Life is full of up's and down's isn't it? I can relate... Sending bright beams of positive thoughts and energy to you and yours. You seem like such a sweet soul. Find some time for yourself dear one.
Posted by: Yanik | February 12, 2010 at 04:07 AM
I keep thinking about you. I've enjoyed so many posts and your outlook on life and beauty. I pray that you find some peace.
Posted by: Beth Lehman | February 12, 2010 at 04:16 AM
Hi Amy,
Take care and i hope that all is ok soon! X julie
Posted by: Julie | February 12, 2010 at 04:56 AM
Ah, February sucks! I too chase the sunlight across my house this time of year. One day at a time, sometimes hourly, is all we can do. This community of bloggers does help ease the pain of late winter. May you find some peace in yourself and those little dears this weekend. Take care.
Posted by: Christina H | February 12, 2010 at 06:00 AM
Hey,
Lots of love coming your way today.
And, at the risk of being intrusive or presumptuous, can I suggest you head over to the Beyond Blue blog? A friend and I have found it SO helpful of late.
Just a thought...
hugs and more hugs,
Jen
Posted by: Jen S | February 12, 2010 at 07:24 AM
Thinking of you...like the sun I hope your spirit finds rays of warmth and things look up.
Posted by: Freckled Hen | February 12, 2010 at 08:06 AM
You're in my thoughts and I wish you peace and comfort during this tough time. Life is so colorful and you see all of the wonderful colors (AND you share them with us!)-even when all seems "blue." Sometimes all one can do is hang on. Moment to moment at times, just hang on.
And know that others are hanging on just the same:)
Jayne
Posted by: Jayne Barbour | February 12, 2010 at 08:10 AM
wrapping you up in a crazy quilt of lurve. we have tea, we have shortbread, we have a moment to carp, harp, vent and laugh. *squeeze*
Posted by: jek | February 12, 2010 at 08:43 AM
Hi sweetheart,
I didn't realize there were such troubles in your life right now. I'm so sorry to hear. Hugs to you and the patience to see it through.
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Posted by: Kira | February 14, 2010 at 01:58 PM
follow the sunshine sweet lady and may it bring much light to your life. sandra x
Posted by: Sandra | February 14, 2010 at 10:23 PM
God Bless you. So sorry for your troubles. There is nothing wrong with acknowledging that the world isn't all sunshine and roses always. Good for you for being brave and going on.
Posted by: Vida | February 16, 2010 at 05:53 AM